So this weekend we had a family memorial for a cousin that we lost. Was volleyball and woodbat. I played in the volleyball, and yes i SUCKED ass. well i didnt, however, my team, they did. But was depressing because everything hit me. My aunt and uncle are getting a divorce. Worst thing ever. My aunt being my hero, someone I look up to, will no longer be at our family events. Its actually really hard. I feel stupid, shes not my mom, or wife, yet its crushing me inside?
Ive been depressed, having so much on my mind. Is college really for me? Whats the point in almost 24 years of schooling, just to live another 20-30? Idk, but for now, im fighting through it,. Because I dont wanna be no quitter.
Life is so short. In all aspects, its a blink of an eye. Trees and everything else stay for hundreds of years. as humans live a short time. Why do we take so many things for granted? It takes losing someone or something before we actually realise what we lost. Its a depressing state of mind. But we get so use to having something, that we forget it can be gone within the blink of an eye.
"Its nights like these, when i feel cold and empty, that I wish you were here, just to make things seem alright."
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